i still find it hard to grasp the fact that anna has gone. i was going to ask my mom what anna what doing today until i realized that she wasnt in her room, or at home for that matter. it seems as though it is supposed to get easier, but in fact it is just getting harder. i went to meijer the other day and broke down crying in the imports isle where i saw her favorite swedish flat bread. i try to keep myself busy just to keep myself from thinking about it, but eventually it ends up happening regardless. it is good for me, though, to have this messy room; tonight i spent about an hour just arranging my magazines by date and the other day i spent around two and a half hours color sorting all of my clothing (drawers included) but thankfully it has kept my mind blank. it was good to see a comical movie the other night, "the a-team" which i recommend be seen, and good to watch fireworks tonight... it freshened me up a bit. not to mention having my pets around which are a big help, you wouldnt think so but they bring such great joy to my life no matter what mood i'm in. i will just have to take this day by day even though it continually gets harder.
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